at home......
skip 1hr tutorial...doing nothing at home so decide to write here...ytd..i got to understand a fren('jia jia') better..he is another fren who is very gd to be fren wif n oso another one so devoted to gf just like him...that is y i started to miss him again but what can i do???
a few days ago i tell myself to be brave n face all the cruel reality...no more tears...no more pain...no more sad...no more making frenz worry for me...
2 days more to visit him...don know how to say...don know what to say to him...having a kind of pressure n had mix feeling...excited+ anxious yet reluntant...i reali reali afraid that he will say something which i don wish to hear....maybe im trying to avoid but to me avoiding is better facing it..i know that this will be the only time i can visit him n the next time around will be either november or later than that...since that day(13.8.04) i received his letter till nw i just reply one letter n is not i don want reply but i feel so inferior to write...most of them say he said that becos he may think that he is someone not worth for me to wait for..or he dont wish to make any promises....but as i noe there are people tends to think positively in the matter of love....even they know the truth they will try their best to console themselves by saying he/she has its own reasons for doing that.....
arghh!!! headache la...feel like being a cry baby again but no more tears.....i always tell myself just let be ...things will come when u least expected....i know if i love him,set him free.if he comes back to me, i know he's mine. if he dont then he was never mean to......
i reali want to tell him i will wait for him since i have been waiting for so long, he is someone worth waiting for n with no regrets!!!!!
frenz out here will u support me?????
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